23 October 2012


today's idolatry:
Isaiah tells us, "who but a fool would make his own god -- an idol that cannot help him one bit!" we think of idols as statues of wood or stone, but in reality an idol is anything natural that is given sacred value and power. if your answer to any of these questions is anything or anyone other than God, u may need to check out who or what u r worshiping.

who created me?
whom do i ultimately trust?
whom do i look to for ultimate truth?
whom do i look to for security and happiness?
who is in charge of my future?

taken from Life Application Study Bible.

these words can be found in Isaiah 44:10 and i believe that we have to answer the questions above honestly. there is a lot of information out there that can lead us in all different directions. but i have found that checking God's Word, the Bible, i can find the TRUTH. a TRUTH that has been tested throughout time and been proven true and steadfast. anyone can say they r a Christian but what r the fruits or actions that come from those words?

the reason i am sharing this is because my hubby got me thinking about Isaiah 45 and Isaiah 46. i finally stopped playing my game and opened up my Bible and read the chapters. after reading them, i read chapter 44 and reread 45 and 46. even tho this is set in times past, it is relevant today. read those words that were written so long ago and look at the present and see if u can see it to. then ask those questions to yourself first and then see if u can see the foolishness in our current president. if that is what u want for yourself, ok. but what about your children? and your grandchildren? i for one DO NOT want to have to explain to my children and grandchildren y a fool leads our country. nor do i want to explain y, when i had the chance to change it, i did nothing. yes, i see our current president as a fool. i do not believe that he can lead my country in the way i would like it go. in my heart of hearts, our current president is a complete liar and thief. our current president has not shown me that he even cares about anything or anyone but himself. he continuously tears down everything that this nation stands for.
is this what u want? do u really want to be told what u can eat, drink, or do? do u want to wonder what it would be like to be free to live the way u want? do u really want to be told when u can do something? i for one am not ready or willing to give up my freedoms that r God-given and those stated in our Constitution. i have the right to stand up for what i believe in. u also have that right. but how long will we have those rights? it's up to u and me.

today, i made my voice heard and voted. i hope u will do the same. the voice of the people has to be heard. at the same time, we need to continue to pray that God Almighty, will have mercy on America and shed His saving grace on this great nation once again.
Isaiah 45:7,8:
"I am the one who creates the light and makes the darkness. I am the one who sends good times and bad times. I, the Lord, am the one who does these things. Open up, O heavens, and pour out your righteousness. Let the earth open wide so salvation and righteousness can sprout up together. I, the Lord, created them."

03 October 2012

Zwnage~rest in peace

on tuesday, 10.02.2012, i learned that a friend passed away after 2+ yrs of fighting stage 4 colon cancer on 10.01.2012. by the time i knew him he was fighting the cancer that had spread. in the game we played, called FLYFF, he was known as Zwnage. he was one of my guild mates and it was always a good time when he was ingame. he rarely shared about the struggle he was goin' thru, but he definitely shared in making us laugh and smile. many times he just wanted to hang. i really had no idea the reality he was facing but i knew from past experiences with friends that stage 4 cancer is a wait and see game. and every time, the battle was lost. and Z was not gonna break it. he was a nice guy to chat with and tho i only saw the pic of him on skype, i would have enjoyed meeting him.

tuesday was the last day of the 3x exp event on FLYFF. everyone was racing to get as much as they could and i was no exception. my main character, Tawli, had made master and was working on getting as far along as she could. a friend and guildmate logged on in the afternoon, my time, morning for him and told us the news. several of us wondered where Z could be. we knew that he was fighting for his life but he had told everyone that he really wanted to use the event to get to master class; however it was not unusual for him to skip a day or 2 of playing the game. but he was always on skype or the new chat client, ventrillo. monday b4 the event, no one had heard from him. on wednesday, the first day of the 3x exp, still no Z. u see he was gonna help me lvl as he lvl'd. my guildmates had planned it out. they were gonna get me to master and then go as far as they could towards hero. well, i made master all the way up to lvl91 b4 i called it a nite on tuesday. but not a single word from Z was heard during the entire event. cyc, crazy, and me wondered where he could be. we knew Z could pass at any time. cyc even looked him up. nothing. so the weekend passed with still no word on Z. apparently cyc couldn't stop looking, and on monday he found the obit and knew it was Z as they had used the same pic that was on skype. now he knew for sure. Z was gone. such a short life for Z. he was 8 days shy of his 26th birthday. cyc was kind and passed the news to all guildmates and to some of us on skype. the last day to get the most out of the exp event was bittersweet and a bit hollow/empty. i noticed those that normally chat up a storm, were quiet, including me. even tho Z had not been ingame for more than a week, he was chatted about with words of hope but deep down we knew.
the one thing he really wanted to do ingame was make master b4 he died. he came so close but it wasn't to be. his character, Zwnage, will remain in the guild unless a system purge is done. a small memorial to us guildies whom he touched with his laughter and online smile.

rest in peace Z