19 February 2013


August 1998

the journey for Brahka and me began on August 30th. she was born as the runt of a litter of 4 pups from our rescue dog Lady. Brahka was very small but fought for every meal from her mother. i chose the runt to keep for my own and asked God to make her a pup that would follow me everywhere. when she was weaned Brahka moved from her mothers bed to my pillow right above my head..
Brahka looked just her mother. she had the tan/brown fur with a dark stripe down her back, that lightened as the years went by. Her ears stood strait up and she looked like Yoda at times with her expressions and ear movements, which got her the nickname Yoda from my husband. i like to call her puppers. She was short legged with the wired-haired carine terrier look, the jack russel leap, and great disposition.

as Brahka grew she played and got underfoot a lot. i was beginning to wonder if i should have asked for something else from God when i asked God for a dog that would follow me everywhere. but i was glad to have a pet that was mine and that loved me and followed. she continued to sleep on my pillow for almost a full year.

in the winter of 1999, we lost her mother, Lady, by way of our doberman, who was subsequently put down. a new dog entered our family in the form of a border collie, who is a much better family dog. the two dogs became good buddies. Brahka began taking care of the new puppy like it was her own. Kaylee continued to get bigger and bigger as border collies r medium-sized dogs but Brahka never stopped mothering her.

thru the years, the 2 dogs entrenched themselves into the family. vet visits, tho expensive, were done with care and treats. about 2002 or 2003, they both tested positive for heartworm and were put on treatment for about 1 year. with checkups every 6 months. the final test for heartworm was complete 3 yrs later. both dogs were free of the thing but placed on the heartworm prevention IVERHART PLUS and it has done very well for both dogs.

in late 2007, we almost lost Brahka. my youngest daughter found her under my sewing table half dead. our other dog, Kaylee was a bit aggressive towards her according to my daughter. Katie called us and at first we thought it was Kaylee until we arrived home. it was Brahka. Katie had brought her out to the car and then headed for an open vet hospital. with it being a saturday, our regular vet was not open so we took her to a vet hospital that was. they immediately took her back to a room and started working on her. they did not give much hope for her but gave every effort to bring her back. she was in the hospital for about a week. they were able to bring her back but never figured out what caused her body to shut down. none of the tests they did on her showed anything specific. so i nursed her back to her old self following the instructions given with meds. i was so happy to have her back. within a month, she was chasing Kaylee around again.
Brahka has been the best friend a girl could ask for. she was there each time i returned home from being out jumping up and down. her favorite place to be petted/scratched was on her tummy. when u reached down to pet her, she would immediately roll on her back and expose her tummy. and because of that, i had her jump in my arms so i could scratch her tummy without having to bend over. she also had a way of "talking" with her yipes and sounds she made. each nite around 2100 hrs, she would sit and look at me or my hubby. just sit there staring at us. if that didn't get our attention, she would give a little quiet yipe. it was her way of telling us it was time for treats. Kaylee did not ask for treats, but was ready if they were being handed out. Brahka would lick my hubby's legs as if "getting on his good side" as she impatiently waited for us to get the treats. once treats were given, she daintily took it and scooted off to eat it.
another time she would "talk" is when she had to go outside to do her business. once again, she would sit and look at u, just staring at u. if that didn't work, she would place her paws on my leg if i was sitting, or jump up and down to get my attention as she hit my legs. those usually got my attention. (tho at times, i would do it on purpose just to have her jump on me.) when she was ready to come back in, she would stand at the door and "look". the funniest thing. if she saw me or my hubby, she would wag her tail or sit down and shake like she was cold and give u those sad puppy dog eyes as best she could. she usually got let in but other times, she had to stay outside. my Brahka was definitely an indoors dog. a few times we would her a clanking of paws and nails on the glass window door. we looked, saw Brahka trying to "break" the glass to get in cuz she didn't want to stay outside. she wanted to be where i was. i had to clean the bottom of the glass door because of that on a regular basis. such a great dog.

many a nite my hubby would have his feet licked as he lay in bed goin' to sleep. she was known as the lickinest dog around. her tongue never stopped. if she was sitting/lying down, u could see her cleaning herself or grooming. we teased how her tongue was the length of her body. we often witnessed her cleaning Kaylee's ears regularly as her tongue seemed to be long enough to reach way down the ear canal. Brahka would also lick anything else she could reach. she really liked licking noses. so when our grandchildren were on the floor, she would do her best to clean their faces. my daughter did not like that. so we had to put our puppers outside.

my puppers, how i miss her.
this mornin' between 0900 and 1000 hrs, we said goodbye.

in August 2012, i noticed a lump growing in her abdomen. told my hubby about it and he said it was just a fatty mass, similar to what Kaylee had earlier that year. but i knew it wasn't. but because of the situation at home i did not push it. i continued to watch it, knowing that in February 2013, they would go in for their yrly checkup. the lump continued to grow and became quite hard. still i waited without saying anything more to my hubby. from the time i checked it in January to the time of the dogs vet app't February 15th, the lump had grown twice as large and now involved 2 of the right side teats in her abdomen.
the day of their app't, Kaylee was examined first. her's was routine and she was given the required shots. then it was Brahka's turn. when i lifted her up i showed Dr. Ann what i was so concerned about. her face said it all even before the word "malignant" was spoken. i saw in her expression of surprise a sadness. i placed Brahka on the table and Dr. Ann looked her over and gave her the shots. she then examined the mass a bit more closely. i asked about a biopsy to find out what it might be. x-rays were taken three spots were found in her lungs, i knew in my heart that they were cancer. but i said nothing. Dr. Ann said they were nothing and the biopsy/surgery could be done. it was set up for today, Tuesday, February 19, 2013 at 1000 hrs. we left the vet hospital after paying the bill with heavy hearts.
all weekend, i fretted over what to do. my hubby reassured me that surgery was ok with him but if i wanted to stop her pain, that was ok too. i weighed all my options. i thought about the fact that the surgery would be expensive, the fact that Brahka could die on the table, what kind of life she might have after the surgery, and her age, 13yrs. all of this i weighed and could come to only one conclusion. i had to end her suffering. i had already put her thru too much by not taking care of the thing in August. i have kicked myself several times over that.
i made my decision on Monday, February 18th and told my hubby. in my sewing room, i sat and cried as i watched my little puppers try to stay with me but could not bear the pain of the hardness of the carpet. she went to her bed. every so often she would come in and check on me, try to lay down and get comfy but would end up leaving for her soft bed. just before i called it a nite on monday, i remembered her look in the eyes. they were tired and almost totally lifeless. it seems she was trying to hang on for me. thinkin' of this brings tears and sobs to me.
we arrived at the vet hospital at 0845 hrs on Tuesday, February 19th. i lifted Brahka up and placed her on the reception desk with my arms wrapped around her. she was shaking like she was scared. but i held her gently there as i let them know that i would not be doin' the surgery but saying goodbye. after waiting a short time, we were escorted to an exam room. after another short wait, Dr. Ann came in and explained what would happen and had me sign a release giving permission to put Brahka to sleep. when she left, i held Brahka as she stood on the exam table. hubby took a few pics as tears ran down my face. Dr. Ann re-entered the room and gave her a sedative to calm her as she was very alert. 10 minutes later, Dr. Ann came back with the drug to put her down. at approximately 0945hrs, Brahka passed quietly into the arms of her Creator. i stroked her head as she passed, even before the drug was completed. i stroked her head a bit more before picking up her lifeless body, cradling her in my arms, and saying my final goodbye. one of the techs came in and made a paw print from her left front paw. then we left.
it has been less than a day and the tears still fall freely. i know she was an animal but she was part of the family and so very loved by me and my family. she will be sorely missed..

this is the last pic taken before Dr. Ann came in and put her to sleep. it took 10 minutes for the sedative to take affect.

1 comment:

  1. She was a great companion, friend and shoe cleaner... She will be missed, mom. I loved her too. She had so many of Rascal's (her sire) characteristics and Lady's (her dam's) looks... now that will be lost with her... I will miss her too and the house visits will not be the same. She was a great family dog, but an even better vacuum! LOL... anyway, she will be missed... I'm sorry I wasn't there when she passed - I didn't even get to say goodbye...