29 July 2013

update

posted my ride from last nite and i was very pleasantly surprised to see that my average cadence jumped so high. 8) that means my challenge is now to keep it there. that's the real challenge as well as build on it. as i build on it, i will be able to take longer and longer rides. and riding my bike is so relaxing! i love it! shouldn't be long now that i can keep up with my hubby.
i am blessed! i have a husband that loves me!
in the past week or so, we have been gearing up for a camping/trail riding time.
it's been quite fun. even slept in the tent one nite while it was up and airing out. took 45 mins to put up but that will change with practice. and we will do it a couple more times b4 we actually leave. 8) have made sure that all the stuff we have is in good working order and if not, have gotten it fixed. still deciding on what we really want to bring food-wise but we still have plenty of time to make that final decision. the only thing i won't get to practice is cooking on that portable stove. (but maybe i can talk hubby into that. we'll see.)
with all the prep, the closet is empty and is in definite need of cleaning. so... i will be doin' that today b4 the stuff gets tucked back in. there is not much to do really.
in other news, hubby has been released from the doc to do full activity on his left knee. it will take time to get all the ligaments, tendons and such back to normal but this will not inhibit his activity. he is taking it easy as he gets back into full swing with riding his bikes. (hopefully, he'll start riding twice a day on the weekends.) the other nite he awoke suddenly with a very nasty leg cramp. it was so bad that he woke me up with his loud cries of pain. it took a good 30 mins or more for that cramp to release. and he could still feel it in the morning, yesterday. but all is good now.
i am doin' really good. i am planning on having a small craft sale in the next couple of weeks. i am really hoping to sell my blankets and crotcheted roses. this is a big step for me as i have never done something like this. i'm hoping that having a craft sale close to school starting will help. i have been asking God to bless each project. it's up to Him what happens as long as i step out and put hands and feet to it.
well, that's about it.
8)

11 July 2013

my thoughts...

well, my family that was close is now gone. they have decided to move back to Washington. i am not happy about mom being so far away again.
it's not an easy thing to want your family part of ur life and then not able to be part of it. for many yrs i have lived far enough away that visiting is difficult. right now i hurt so bad inside that i have no idea how to deal with it.
i do have one light in my life that is beginning to shine bright. and that light is my BFF. get to spend time with her tomorrow all day. will be really nice. tho today, i thought i had more day to wait. it's actually Friday tomorrow. how did i get one day behind? but i will do ok.
when i found out that my mom was goin' back to Washington, i was not at all happy about it. but since she stays with my brother, she goes where he goes. in 2007 they moved to Missouri and now they will return to Washington. a few times, mom wanted to come down for visits but each and every time, her plans were thwarted. not once did she come down by herself for a visit. two times my brother with family came down and b4 brianna got married, brian and brianna stopped by for about an hour b4 leaving for Missouri.
i love my family very much but i have never felt a part of it. guess that's because of my childhood and the choices i made. i am glad brian and drina get to go back to where they really want to be. but i am sad they will be so far away. not really for them but because my mom is goin'. so many times i would have loved to share time with her but can't cuz of the distance. and now with them being so far away once again, the distance will be much more difficult to cross. email, computers, and skype can't take the place of one being physically there. and u can't play a good card game over the phone/puter. it's just not the same.
MOM, i love u and i will miss u. have no idea when we can see each other again. have a safe trip.

10 July 2013

MAN! IT'S HOT!

thought i would try to take a ride about this time: 1200 hrs. when i looked outside, the wind was almost nothing but the sun was hot. so i checked the weather here on my laptop.
by the time i would have been ready for my ride, the temp would be in the mid 90's. so i looked to see if riding when the sun is no longer shining would be possible. it is but the humidity will be about 60% or higher. so, what to do. it's more conducive to swimming than riding right now but i don't have a pool i can enjoy. not sure what hubby has planned for tonite. i guess, i will enjoy the A/C and watch the Ranger game i recorded last nite and get some crotcheting done.
be glad when the sun is not so hot outside during the day so i can enjoy it more. but that's Texas for ya. 8)

03 July 2013

something to ponder

the longer u hide what u don't want known, the longer it takes to conquer it. no matter what it is.
speaking with a friend, she shared with me about someone that was having trouble showing weakness. this person didn't want to appear weak in her eyes. the problem with that: most of the time, the weakness can be seen. the one trying to hide a weakness ends up showing it.
i, too, have had to learn this lesson. and this lesson is not an easy one to learn. my choices determine what my action. if i choose to "hide" something i don't want others to see, they see it anyway. body language gives it away.
y not just admit u have a weakness? it then becomes less of a problem for u and u can then face it head on. facing weakness head on strengths u overall cuz u learn u can overcome.
but, how can u admit weakness, overcome it, and be strengthened?
in order to admit weakness, u have to recognize it. for those that r Christians, a gentle prompting from Holy Spirit usually gets that done. sometimes Holy Spirit has to use other ways to get our attention but, if we listen to Him, He usually shows us the next step in taking care of it.
the next step is admitting the weakness and the need for help in overcoming it. some call this accountability. when we r accountable to another, we tend to stick with it. asking for help is not a weakness. asking for help is part of the process God uses to help us overcome, learn, and triumph. remember, even Job asked for help. being accountable when in the process of overcoming weakness strengthens one in mind and body. the spirit is strengthened by leaning on God's Word as u go thru the process. when i am in the process of overcoming a weakness, i remember Ps. 51:10: "Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me." right now, i working a weakness. my weakness is laziness. when i ask God to renew a right spirit within me, i am letting him know that i'm having trouble with my weakness. i also remember: "i can do all things thru Christ who strengthens me." so many scriptures that encourage me to continue to overcome my weakness.
i am strengthened each time i overcome that weakness, which makes it easier to face the next time it shows up. my spirit is also strengthened because God's Word is now part of my thinking process when the weakness decides to show it's ugly head. u r strengthened each time u overcome weakness.
but u might say, weakness is not always something u need to conquer or overcome. and i say to that, weakness has conquered u.
showing weakness does not mean u r weak, pussy, or push over. it takes strength just to admit any kind of weakness. but in the admission of it, u r already facing it and in the process of overcoming it so that u r strengthened even more. "Be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might." when u overcome weakness, u become strong in faith.
only in the strength of God's power can u admit, overcome, and be strengthened in weakness. He is our strength. once we grasp that, our weakness has no power to hold us back.