20 December 2015

the ongoing situation... we fight!

just heard from hubby: we fight! do not know when we face trial. i do know that God is in control. Psalm 27 has become my prayer. this fight will not only be fought in court but on our knees.

please continue to pray not only for situation but that God provides the finances. as u can imagine, it can get expensive. ken and i r getting house done just in case we have to sell it. hubby has a job that God gave him last January. and to be honest, it's the perfect job for him. 

the situation that has created a chasm in my family is ongoing.

in late November, we learned a few new things in our journey. those that know of our situation have shared encouraging things with me. i am encouraged by the support i have gotten from family and friends.

Psalm 27 has become a scripture i read regularly. v14-Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord. i am learning what it means to wait on the Lord in a situation that is nerve racking. i have to remind myself that God is in control and has it all in hand. He is taking care of this situation. i only need to let Him do His thing and be ready to step out when He says move. there is much to learn and i am doin' my best to listen and learn.

i must admit, that not seeing my granddaughter and grandson is hard. their mother has chosen to stay out of our lives. i find myself looking out the window from my craft room to see if she has stopped by. the pain of this is deep. the emptiness is indescribable. the fact that my daughter has caused this chasm in our family is hurtful. there r so many questions i have within me. but the one i want to ask the most is "WHY?" but i don't think i will ever find out why.

on the other side of this situation, my youngest daughter has stepped up to help me in any way she can. i so appreciate it. i am so grateful for the help in just including me in her life and sharing the little things my grandchildren do. her husband also includes me. he is a giant gentle bear. tho he is a bit loud at times, he is so respectful of me and my hubby.

this past friday, i had a new experience. it was nerve racking but i'm glad i did it. i can only hope that the decision made is one i can live with. the answer we seek will be given early this week. i am holding on to God's promise.

until next time...

16 November 2015


to all those praying for us and our situation, THANK U! 
as of this post, there is nothing new to share. we r in a holding pattern right now.
hubby is, however, doing well at his job and is growing deeper in the Lord Jesus. i, too, am growing in my relationship with Daddy. He has been strengthening, calming, teaching, and blessing us thru all of this.
i have found a strength from within that is sustaining me as well as drawing me closer to Jesus. there is so much i am discovering about me. i have walked thru many emotions since this trial has begun. each time, Holy Spirit draws me back to Daddy. has it been easy or "a piece of cake"? NOT ON YOUR LIFE! it has been a struggle for me.
not only am i dealing with this "sword" over our heads but also with a thyroid issue. i am not yet balanced out. and my issue is not only with the thyroid but the many different things that come with being an aging female.
i find myself turning to Daddy many times during the day just to get thru the day and get something accomplished. i find that helps a lot.
hubby is diving into God's word like there is no tomorrow. i love hearing about what God is revealing to him. i also enjoy listening to him share what he is getting out of God's word. it is beginning to show in his life. 😊
sometimes, i see a sparkle in Ken's eye that warms me. he has grown so much in the last few months. it's awesome to see Ken really rest in God's hands or on His lap. Ken has trusted God a long time but, it is only recently that i have noticed a much deeper walk with a change of heart in some long closed doors. it is good to see healing in those closed off places. i pray that God continues the good work He is doing within Ken until the end.

please continue praying for the situation u r walking thru. i, myself, will continue praying not only for that but for those who r praying for us, even if i don't know who u r, God does.
again, THANK U for your continued prayers. they really do make a difference.

until next time...

22 October 2015

morning read for 22 October 2015

Isaiah 1:18 NIV
[18] “Come now, let us settle the matter,” says the Lord.

i know God is talking about salvation here; however, these words can apply to my situation.
i am already His child. i have accepted what Jesus Christ did for me. but i still have things come up that have to be dealt with. i still have to get thru the trials and tribulations of this life. i believe God wants us to settle the past. i also believe God wants us to settle the present trials in our lives. however, settling current matters can be complicated.
how do i settle a matter that has torn a family apart? how do i communicate with the other party when contact has been severed by the other party? how will the matter be settled without God intervening?
if God does nothing, then nothing good can come of this matter. if God does not settle this matter, then an innocent man goes to jail.

James 1:12 NIV
[12] Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him.

the trials of this life r supposed to bring perseverance. that may be true, but not all trials bring the right kind of perseverance. suffering for believing in God is one thing. suffering because of someone's false accusations is another. tho they can be intertwined.

the answer to my questions r in the latter part of James 1:12 - "...that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him."
even if the matter is settled, the accused either imprisoned or set free, he who believes and perseveres will be given the promised crown of life.
it does not matter the trial one goes thru. if u r steadfast in your relationship with God, He will reward u according to His promise. u may not see it here on earth. but staying steadfast in your faith and relationship with Jesus, your perseverance will be rewarded.
the KEY is NOT LETTING GO in the midst of the trial or tribulation.

14 October 2015

Isaiah 40:26 & Proverbs 22:24

Isaiah 40:26->
Lift up your eyes and look to the heavens: Who created all these? He who brings out the starry host one by one and calls forth each of them by name. Because of his great power and mighty strength, not one of them is missing.


Who created all these?

calls forth each of them by name

not one of them is missing


Proverbs 22:24
Do not make friends with a hot-tempered person, do not associate with one easily angered,

how is it that a family member is one that is the hot-tempered one that gets angered easily?
then does something that is so devastating and hurtful.
how am i supposed to handle something like that?
i know forgiveness is of the utmost importance. but forgiveness can be hard when the one u see everyday bearing that devastation has all but physically died. i watch and see my hubby bearing a weight that should never have been placed there by our own daughter. how do i as a wife and mother handle this?

in Isaiah 40:26 it tells me to lift up my eyes and look to the heavens. i see the stars God made. i know He calls them each by name and none r missing.
so am i to lift up my eyes to the heavens? am i supposed rest in the fact God has not forgotten me or that i am missing?
YES! i am to totally trust God. His Word is true.
now what am i to do about one who looks so defeated, torn to shreds, and feels alone. how do i help my hubby to stand tall once again with the knowledge of our situation and deep hurt it has caused.
how do i come to grips that this life changing event has torn our family apart? how do i ever trust or even respect my daughter again?
at this point, there is no trust or respect for her or her husband. hard to say, but it is where i am at. both my hubby and i pray for the entire family. i have placed their names in a few scriptures. not only does this release God's Word into their lives, but also allows healing to happen within me. the hardest thing in all of this is the grandkids. we have not seen our first 2 grandchildren in over a month. and they live very close to us.

the one good thing is our youngest daughter and her hubby have been a big help, even tho they live much farther away. just being able to talk to someone really helps. 

last nite as we prayed together, hubby couldn't find any words to pray. he just hung his head and cried. he is also a bit depressed becuz of what is happening. in my opinion, he is still grieving that a family has been torn apart. and him not feeling good is stemming from the weight of our situation. i believe he is trying to come to terms with the fact of a shattered family.
i, too, am coming to terms with it. i do my best to focus on my other daughter's family.

01 October 2015

Zephaniah 3:17 - God lives among us

17 For the Lord your God is living among you. 

He is a mighty savior. 

He will take delight in you with gladness. 

With his love, he will calm all your fears. 

He will rejoice over you with joyful songs.”

how do we know God is living among us?

how can God calm our fears?

what joyful songs does God rejoice over us with?

these r questions i am asking myself. an event happened and is ongoing that has me running to God for answers. this event is one that tears families apart. i am walking thru a very difficult event in my life. but God has been with me the entire time. i know He will continue to be with me.

28 September 2015

September 28, 2015

today is my brother's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRIAN!!!

the situation that has torn my family apart is ongoing. don't know when it will be resolved, if ever.

my hubby is totally torn up about it. i have never seen him look this broken, beaten down b4. even today, he is not the same. and neither am i. tho i am doing my best to put a smile on my face, i struggle. it is hard to see a man just want to lay down and die. it feels like we r alone. but i know we r not. God is carrying us as we walk this hurtful road together. we cling to each other and God.

at this time, i cannot say much about the situation which makes it harder. but, i know God is in control and He will take care of us.

we will be spending some time together as we "get-a-way". looking forward to that

01 February 2015

IT IS WRITTEN... a very interesting point

this mornin' my hubby came in to the room i was sitting and crocheting.

he said that sometimes God just speaks to ya in strange ways. this mornin' he was listenin' to Charles Stanley who was sharing about how Jesus handled the the devil while he was in the desert those 40 days. this is what i understood from what my hubby said.

hubby said that we lose the battle every time we respond to what the devil is saying. Jesus always responded with "it is written". that is how we r to respond when the devil speaks to us. most of the time we don't, we engage in a discussion with the devil. as soon as we engage in that discussion, we have lost the discussion. the way hubby put it is like this: u engage in a discussion between one or more people because 1) u have a valid point, or 2) the other person(s) have a valid point. the devil does not have a valid point in the life of one that has accepted Jesus. Jesus is our valid point. we do not need to discuss that point with the devil in any way, shape or form. "IT IS WRITTEN" is all we need to say to the devil. speaking the written WORD of GOD answers all of the devil's questions, allegations, and assumptions. the WRITTEN WORD of GOD is ENOUGH.

so the next time the devil comes to u or at u, speak the WRITTEN WORD of GOD. God's word will shut the devil up real fast. after u speak God's word, remove yourself from that thinking and walk in God's word. that is how u win the battle when the devil tries to make dialogue with u. it really is a mind thing. walking with the knowledge of the written word of God is different from living the written word of God. the devil has knowledge of God's word, but the devil does not live the word of God. the key to living the WORD of GOD is spending time with God every day as u would a neighbor or friend or family member.

sadly, i do not do this every day. and spending time with God every day strengthens the bond and the relationship between u and God. i know when i spend time with God, my mind is strengthened, my soul is strengthened, and so is my body. i have a better day and am a better person towards other people.

i'll tell u this, i have a good relationship with God, the Father. but if i were to spend time every day with Him, my good relationship with God would be more solid, stronger. spending time with those u love gives a feeling of security and strength. i want that feeling of security and strength in my relationship with God, the Father. Jesus is my best friend. no other has ever stood with me longer than Him. i'm sure there r others that can say the same thing. Jesus is the reason i am still here. Jesus is the reason i can still wake up every day and live. Jesus is the reason i can show others kindness. Jesus is the reason i can give comfort to those who need it.

what can u say Jesus is the reason for in your life?

with Jesus being the reason, u can speak to the devil these words, "IT IS WRITTEN" just as Jesus did when he faced the devil in the desert so long ago. don't be afraid to stand on God's word. God's word still has the same power as it had back then. that is something no other written word can say.

so, what will your next response be when the devil wants to dialogue or argue with u.