14 October 2015

Isaiah 40:26 & Proverbs 22:24

Isaiah 40:26->
Lift up your eyes and look to the heavens: Who created all these? He who brings out the starry host one by one and calls forth each of them by name. Because of his great power and mighty strength, not one of them is missing.


Who created all these?

calls forth each of them by name

not one of them is missing


Proverbs 22:24
Do not make friends with a hot-tempered person, do not associate with one easily angered,

how is it that a family member is one that is the hot-tempered one that gets angered easily?
then does something that is so devastating and hurtful.
how am i supposed to handle something like that?
i know forgiveness is of the utmost importance. but forgiveness can be hard when the one u see everyday bearing that devastation has all but physically died. i watch and see my hubby bearing a weight that should never have been placed there by our own daughter. how do i as a wife and mother handle this?

in Isaiah 40:26 it tells me to lift up my eyes and look to the heavens. i see the stars God made. i know He calls them each by name and none r missing.
so am i to lift up my eyes to the heavens? am i supposed rest in the fact God has not forgotten me or that i am missing?
YES! i am to totally trust God. His Word is true.
now what am i to do about one who looks so defeated, torn to shreds, and feels alone. how do i help my hubby to stand tall once again with the knowledge of our situation and deep hurt it has caused.
how do i come to grips that this life changing event has torn our family apart? how do i ever trust or even respect my daughter again?
at this point, there is no trust or respect for her or her husband. hard to say, but it is where i am at. both my hubby and i pray for the entire family. i have placed their names in a few scriptures. not only does this release God's Word into their lives, but also allows healing to happen within me. the hardest thing in all of this is the grandkids. we have not seen our first 2 grandchildren in over a month. and they live very close to us.

the one good thing is our youngest daughter and her hubby have been a big help, even tho they live much farther away. just being able to talk to someone really helps. 

last nite as we prayed together, hubby couldn't find any words to pray. he just hung his head and cried. he is also a bit depressed becuz of what is happening. in my opinion, he is still grieving that a family has been torn apart. and him not feeling good is stemming from the weight of our situation. i believe he is trying to come to terms with the fact of a shattered family.
i, too, am coming to terms with it. i do my best to focus on my other daughter's family.